I want to.. fall asleep in your arms under the warm sun of the sky..in the late afternoon of the summer, the breeze would lull us to sleep and slowly and gently drift into our fantasyland.
I don't think I want to think of Life without him. I couldn't fall in love with anyone else... Ever since I met him, the whole world seem to have changed color. I like myself much more with him in my life. The world would be black and white without him.. It was the end of summer and the beginning of fall of a new semester of high school: 11th grade. It was within the walls of colors and freedom to express where I first met him, his quixotic and and quirky smile had gotten the attention of most people, but me.. I held no interest. But some how... I was able to open up my heart to him and him only.. It didn't matter that I didn't know him I felt like some how I just knew he liked things simple yet complex. I was bored with my life.. Everyday I'm more and more bored than the day after..it felt as if Life was repeating itself over and over again until the day I died, I had almost everything.. I had friends.. family.. freedom.. but yet I never really smiled in pictures back then..and now I know why.
Ever since I started seeing him..I've been wondering what I should do. I'm sure I can't follow him. Becasue he's the kind of guy..who would rather be free, even if it means being alone. There's a part of me that thinks that we like each other, but..I thought just getting him to notice me would be enough to satisfy me. But I was wrong. His heart is as free as the wind, and no one can capture it. I'd have to keep chasing him forever..and I'd never catch him. I can't do that. I don't have it in me. I can barely handle my own life right now. I can't be with him..But I will still love him. I love his freedom.
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