A Comforatble Room-

I want to.. fall asleep in your arms under the warm sun of the sky..in the late afternoon of the summer, the breeze would lull us to sleep and slowly and gently drift into our fantasyland.

I don't think I want to think of Life without him. I couldn't fall in love with anyone else... Ever since I met him, the whole world seem to have changed color. I like myself much more with him in my life. The world would be black and white without him.. It was the end of summer and the beginning of fall of a new semester of high school: 11th grade. It was within the walls of colors and freedom to express where I first met him, his quixotic and and quirky smile had gotten the attention of most people, but me.. I held no interest. But some how... I was able to open up my heart to him and him only.. It didn't matter that I didn't know him I felt like some how I just knew he liked things simple yet complex. I was bored with my life.. Everyday I'm more and more bored than the day after..it felt as if Life was repeating itself over and over again until the day I died, I had almost everything.. I had friends.. family.. freedom.. but yet I never really smiled in pictures back then..and now I know why.

Ever since I started seeing him..I've been wondering what I should do. I'm sure I can't follow him. Becasue he's the kind of guy..who would rather be free, even if it means being alone. There's a part of me that thinks that we like each other, but..I thought just getting him to notice me would be enough to satisfy me. But I was wrong. His heart is as free as the wind, and no one can capture it. I'd have to keep chasing him forever..and I'd never catch him. I can't do that. I don't have it in me. I can barely handle my own life right now. I can't be with him..But I will still love him. I love his freedom.

Yours & Mine,

When everything's over.. everytime I put my hand together it would remind me of you.. the shape of your heart given to me time and time again..

Words,

Last
I.
While you slept,
I kissed you in the morning light,
on the lips, like you've always
wanted- but I always said no;
it's too Intimate. Too close.
I placed my mouth against yours, trembled there,
trying to memorize
the gentleness
of your breathing and
the slope
of your nose.

Passenger Seat
We use to share stories,
just you and me, in that car.
You told me your secrets and I told you mine,
we held nothing back.
But Time took you by the hand,
and left me behind.
Now I just sit there,
curled up in a ball, next to you in silence.
The stories and secrets all neatly packed away,
I sit there staring out the window of the passenger seat.

Phone
You use to call me every night,
I didn't have to wait, I just knew.
Hearing your voice at the end,
made the the night so much better.
It was what kept me connected to you,
when everything else seemed impossible to believe.
Now, the other end is quiet,
I feel it's all my fault that you stopped.
I wish...
I could hear it again.

Relationships,

"...Relationships are so fragile.. it just takes one thing.. one tiny little offense and it can snowball on you. And if that snowball starts to pick up speed god forbid.."

"Relationships don't work the way they do on television and in the movies: will they, won't they and then finally they do and they're happy forever, gimme a break. 9 outta 10 of them end is because they're weren't right for each other to begin with and those that get married get divorced anyways and I'm telling you right now through all this stuff I have not become a cynic, I haven't. Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and you know in some cultures.. a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don't care cause I do.. believe in it. Bottom line, it's couples that are truly right for each other weighs through the same crap as everybody else the only big difference is that they don't let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time if it's right and they're real lucky.. one of them will say something."

-Perry Cox